these days i’ve been staying out late and sleeping in, feeling warm in the sun and with my friends, laughing with anyone who will listen, talking to my family and hanging with my sister, only drinking at parties, listening to music, some new, some old, singing and dancing, hearing guitars, learning how to play a little, eating more and happily, trying new things, falling in love with myself again, realizing life has more to offer, thinking about going on birth control, not unrelatedly seeing a new boy who maybe could be really good, feeling the start of summer in whole